Redamancy

In life we all have an unspeakable secret,
an irreversible regret,
an unreachable dream and an unforgettable love. 

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Most days, I feel invisible, like it wouldn’t matter if I vanished from the face of the earth.
Some days, I feel like the most loved person in the world. Today is one of those lucky days. 

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Thank you for bringing a piece of heaven to me.

Love,
Shasha.

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I Am Back

Hello all you sexy faces! 🙂

I realize I’ve slacked off considerably on this blog for the past 2 weeks, and I do apologize for my tardiness. Truth is, I’ve been meaning to write a post for a while, and I’ve have actually got at least 5 blog drafts collecting dust somewhere in the back burner. Issue at hand being, I’ve not been in a proper state to talk beauty and reviews for a while now. I know that sounds serious, but it truly isn’t in light of everything else going on in this world.  I’ve been rather in deep thought, and I’ve pretty much shut down into myself while figuring out what is going on in my life right now.

Call it an epiphany, call it mid life crisis, I don’t really know. Sometimes life throws you a massive curveball, and you try your best to dodge it, but life sucks so it hits you right in the face, and you wake up feeling dazed, and somehow like a brand new person. That’s pretty much what has happened to me.

I woke up one day realizing that I’ve been saying no to so many opportunities that have presented themselves in my life, and why I keep pushing them away is beyond me? Is fear holding me back? Am I too worried to step out of my comfort zone? Be it career choices, love, relationships, new experiences in life, I’ve been holding back on so much. I haven’t the faintest clue, but what I do know is that I need to change, and I’ve been trying to say yes to almost any new thing coming my way. I hate saying this, but YOLO is the way to for me, for now at least.

I’ve also hung on too long onto things that have not given me the happiness that I was seeking, and while doing so, lost on opportunities to actually find the actual things that will make me a happier person. So yes, a lot of cutting off dead limbs and branches too. It hasn’t been easy doing so, since people do hang onto things for a reason, and giving them up is never easy.

I’ve made a lot of decisions that I’ve regretted recently *cue judgmental stares here*,  some that I have ended up loving, and I’m a better person now for it. There’s this quote I wanted to share with you guys which I found online, which spoke to me very deeply, and it has somewhat changed my way of thinking of the people who are, have been, and will be in my life.

“One day you meet someone and for some inexplicable reason, you feel more connected to this stranger than anyone else- closer to them than your closest family. Perhaps this person carries within them an angel- one sent to you for some higher purpose; to teach you an important lesson or to keep you safe during a perilous time. What you must do is trust in them- even if they come hand in hand with pain or suffering -the reason for their presence will become clear in due time.”

“Though here is a word of warning-you may grow to love this person but remember they are not yours to keep. Their purpose isn’t to save you but to show you how to save yourself. And once this is fulfilled; the halo lifts and the angel leaves their body as the person exits your life. They will be a stranger to you once more.”

-Lang Leav

I found those words to ring very true, especially with all the comings, goings, and goodbyes that I’ve been experiencing recently. People come for a reason, and they have to go for a reason. It doesn’t matter what those reasons are, just remember that at the end of it all, you WILL come out stronger, wiser, and more beautiful than before. Speaking from someone who is going through a lot of emotional upheaval right now, I can tell you that you will be okay. It doesn’t matter if you cant trust anyone else, just remember to always trust yourself.  You have a long journey ahead of you, and this moment, right now, is simply the beginning of that amazing journey.

All right, seems that I’m coming off a bit preachy and philosophical here 😀 ,pardon me, but I had to share my thoughts out before my brain just explodes with all these thoughts racing and pacing.

On top of everything aforementioned, I’ve set out a list of things that I simply must achieve in 2015, and I’ll share that list with you guys once I’m halfway there! I’ve got so much to do, and I’m excited to give them a go. Well at least I can check moving jobs off that list, so one down, 15 more to go!

Since you are reading this, tell me, have you felt/made a change or upheaval in your life recently? What or whom inspired that change?

 I’m going to sign off for now, since I have to start my day now. 🙂 I do promise a beauty post coming soon!
Talk to you guys soon! Lots of love ❤

xoxo,
Shashay

Fears & Demons

The only thing we have to fear is fear itself. ~ Franklin D. Roosevelt

Hey guys. I’ve been meaning to write about this for a very long time, but because its such a close and personal topic to heart, I’ve been avoiding the subject entirely. Fears aren’t something we reveal freely, and even when we do, its to very few people, with much hesitation. Mine is only known to myself and my other half, & has been discussed in length over the years. I guess it time I finally talk about it and hope writing about it gives me some form of acceptance and solution.

I have a fear of driving.

Now that sounds simple enough doesn’t it? Just start a damn car, and drive it. How difficult could that be? Well, see below, and you’ll understand that it’s not THAT easy.

Symptoms include: Trembling, sweating, accelerated pulse, loss of sense of reality, and thoughts of losing control while driving, even in situations that are reasonably safe. This fear will cause many to avoid driving, create excuses to not drive, or even refuse to get a driver’s license for years.

I do have a real driver’s license, and I have driven before, with no fear whatsoever. Nowadays, I make excuses to not drive, and I have mini panic thoughts every time someone asks me to drive. When I do actually drive, I feel like I could black out anytime. I never tremble, not even when speaking in front of hundreds of people, but put me in the driver’s seat, and you’ll see me actually shaking. Thankfully I haven’t lost my sense of reality lol.

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Why you may ask?

A while ago, 4 years ago, I met with an accident. Wasn’t a serious one, and I didn’t even have a scratch on me, but the ordeal was bad enough to turn me away from driving. I remember having nightmares after the accident, and I couldn’t sleep well for weeks. The reason I’m writing about my fear now is that I have a car now. It doesn’t belong to me, but it is mine to use anytime, anywhere. But its outside, collecting dust, rust, dirt and just being useless despite being a nice, shiny new car. Why should I let a great car go to waste simply because of my fear?

I’ve been forcing myself to drive the car, but every time I pick up the car keys, my heart feel likes it going to claw its way out of my chest. Dramatic, but true.

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Its embarrassing, somewhat shameful, and downright frustrating sometimes. I mean, I have a car but I can’t drive it? WTF. I feel its unfair, because I can do anything in this world (including bungee jumping and cliff diving), but I can’t even do something as simple as driving a car. Moving past the ranting, to counter my phobia, I’ve been taking short drives, and trying to just feel and be “one with the car” as my other half would say lol, so wish me luck guys! Lets hope I can be zipping around town sometime soon. Hope it doesn’t take long.

Do tell me if you have faced any kind of fear, and if you managed to overcome it and how. Comments will be much appreciated, so do share your personal struggle with your inner demons. 😀

xoxo,
Shashay

The Tale Of Good Food/Girl Gone Bad

So I’m starting this post without actually thinking about what I wanna write about, but I just needed to jot my thoughts down so that I can clear my head a bit. Everything seems a little fuzzy to me today, and I need to get stuff off my mind. I guess you could call this blog my ‘once in a while’ Pensive.

I guess it all started this week, since Monday when work was starting to get super cray cray, and I’ve been getting lost, tired, and just plain god-damn fed up with everything. I wake up, go to work, continue to work all day with almost zero breaks, and come back home to sleep. Haven’t had time to blog, or just do something that isn’t work related and makes me genuinely happy from the inside.

Moving on to yesterday night, I ate a gigantic peach for dinner, (trying to lose wight, eat healthy and all that jazz) & off I went to bed. Well someone must hate me because that peach gave me hella shit for the next 24 hours. Starting at 2am, my tummy was twisting and turning, and I was dying from stomach cramps. 5 hours later, and 7 trips to the bathroom later, I was at deaths end.

Couldn’t even bother putting pants on after the 3rd bathroom round. Texted my bosses to let them know I will be into the office late, (at this point I should have just told them I will not be in the office at all) and proceeded to get my sorry ass to the doctors at Uptown Damansara. Got some meds, went to meet a client right after. Thank god her office is super near to the clinic. Meeting done, back to the office. Should I mention at this point, that I was supposed to be on sick leave and I had a legit medical certificate saying I shouldn’t be working?

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Continued working, right up to almost 4pm and I just wanted to flip table already. Packed my shit up and left the office. Reached home, continued to work, fml. Replying emails, sending stuff off. What is my life? Doesn’t the shit stop? And don’t get me started on Whatsapp. I freaking hate my Whatsapp so much that I wanna exorcise it with a sharp knife, but hey, I cant, cause its my main client communication method.

At least my lunch was amazing.I ate chicken porridge which tasted heavenly from some random hawker stall at SS17.

Thank god my boss is an amazing dood. And thank god for amazing colleagues. Zhong, if you’re reading this shit post man, thank you for everything. You don’t know how much of a help you have been. (At some point you need to help me install AI & PSD so I can stop bugging you for random shit)

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After 3 hours of this nonsense, threw my work laptop aside (I swear, the next company I go to, imma refuse a work laptop furiously) and got myself to bed.

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Woke up now in a fuzzy state of mind and typing this nonsensical blog post while my Indian housemates continue to make a racket outside. Indian seriously give themselves a bad rep. No wonder people think we’re uncivilized and noisy.

Seems my head isnt so fuzzy anymore now, but everything bloody aches. Not to mention the fever I feel coming on, and the fact that I still need to go to work tomorrow. And the cramps omg wtf. Seriously, thank god for Fridays. Imma brave one more day, and just rest and hermit myself the whole weekend. (Wait damn it, I may have events this weekend fml)  Anyway, this is my post. Hate it, love it, hope you laughed cause this is gonna look hilarious to me next week, so thanks for the read.

Lap you all,

xoxo,
Shashay

Yes, No, Organ Donation?

Hey yall!

Haven’t had much time to sit down and pen my thoughts into a proper post, so here is a random snippet of my day for you 🙂

My line of work at the moment is quite exciting, and I’m not gonna go into details (company policies and all that you see) but somehow, I have had the opportunity to learn about organ donation in a closer way. Personally, I don’t know anyone who has gotten an organ transplant before, nor do I know of anyone who has received one. (My experience with Grey’s Anatomy doesn’t count I guess)  I do have mum & dad who has registered to donate, but I’ve personally never been inclined to sign up myself.

Earlier today, this landed on my lap.

Pic via : Instagram 

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My colleagues were gladly filling up their forms and my internal reaction was basically “WTF, am I gonna get peer pressured to sign up for organ donation?” #firstworldproblems 

But I took a step back and thought, “hey, I’m gonna be a dead carcass someday anyway, so who cares about people cutting me up and taking my organs?” I doubt my family would mind, nor would le boyf. It IS my body, and I choose what I do with it, no?  And besides, if my organs have the power to give a random stranger a new lease on life, why not? Assuming that stranger isn’t a homicidal maniac or a psycho serial killer, I wouldn’t mind them having my lungs, cornea or heart.

So what has been stopping me from signing up all these years? This isn’t the first time I’ve come across organ donation, but this is definitely the first time I’ve felt so strongly about it. I’ve been educated about this topic, that’s for sure. My religion says nothing on it, (even if it did, I wouldn’t care anyways) and my family would support my decision in a heartbeat. 

Call it fear, call it a “calling” if you must, but I guess there comes a point in your life where you will feel so strongly enough about a cause or a topic, take that leap and just do it. (whuddup Nike reference!)  Many hours later, after much contemplation, I’ve filled out my form and I’ll be sending it over to the relevant people 😀 And in a few days time, le boyf will be doing the same.

Did you know that you can save 8 lives by donating your organs? I didn’t, and it was only today (thanks to my job) that I finally learnt how much difference one person can make just by filling out a simple form. The people I spoke to today were conservative Muslims who have been championing this cause for the longest time, and it honestly surprised me, considering how much a taboo it is in the Muslim community (or even the Hindus & Buddhists for that matter) to donate your organs. 

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What are your thoughts on organ donation? Lets talk about it, so drop me a comment and we’ll take it from there 🙂

To learn more about organ donation or to sign up, you guys can use the info below: 

Hotline Tel No: 1800-88-9080
Website: www.dermaorgan.gov.my
Facebook: www.facebook.com/dermaorgan

PS: I wasn’t paid to write to this post nor was it sponsored in anyway. This was just something that I came across via my line of work, and I thought it was worth sharing for the general good of mankind ❤

xoxo,
Shashay

Of First Days and Learning

Haroo awesomesauces!

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Please forgive my absence on the blog. I’ve been trying to find some peace and quiet to just sit down and talk to yall but things have been crazy recently. I know I’ve been mentioning a new job, a new place and so on for the longest time, but with no actual details shared on my part, so if anyone is reading, welcome to the 411 of my current life!

Now I’m not sure if anyone in planet Earth apart from myself gives a crap about the coming and goings of my life, but for argument’s sake, lets say that you reading this are nosy enough to read this post right to the very end.

Shall we begin?

First things first, I moved to the city. Well technically I was kind of living in a city before, but now I moved wayyy more closer to it, lol. And as we all know, moving, packing, shifting is a tiring job of itself, but luckily I had le boyf helping me out ❤ Thank goodness for amazing other halfs! I’ve now upgraded  from my dinky little room to a much nicer place, where everything I need is literally 5 minutes away. And I think my favourite bit is the majestic huge bed 😀

This is how I feel every time I come home to my room!

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So why did I move again? Oh yeah, a new job. Now most of you are aware of the fact that I wasn’t in a very happy place whilst serving my previous company and I’ve now landed here, in advertising. A big leap from where I was before, and from what I studied in, but hey, life is too short to stay in the same bloody industry. I needed a change, so here I am.

The thing is though, I haven’t the faintest clue about advertising, and I am literally starting from scratch now. And as everyone in the world keeps reminding me, yes advertising is stressful, tiring and just downright exhausting. I would agree, but considering I’m still rather new to it, I havent felt the full brunt of the workload. I’ll keep yall posted on the job shall I? And as comes with a new job, there is a whole lot of learning.

These days, every time a new task lands on my table, my internal reaction is basically this. 

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Glasses raised that I do well despite not knowing a single thing *cheers*

Next up, blogging! Despite my lack of updates here, its seems that I have been gaining quite a bit followers, and the local PR and blogging scene is finally aware of my humble existence. Its been one opportunity after another, and I am eternally grateful for all the exciting things that I have experienced through blogging which I otherwise would have never experienced in a million years. Thank you for making my life so much better 🙂

The feeling of reading an exceptionally exciting email from a PR/Brand/anything blogging related.

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A slight annoyance would be the fact that most people around are starting to have the impression that I get a lot of free stuff. Now I am not sure where this thought stems from, maybe it’s because I review quite a bit of products, and most pictures of myself are accompanied by a product review.

Now I wont lie, yes I do get a few things from sponsors now and then, and I WILL mention that fact, but most times, and especially in my earlier posts when I started this blog, all the items pictured are things that I bought for myself, by myself. I’m a product junkie, and whether I get sponsored products or not, I will continue to purchase things for myself. 

If you don’t like that fact, here is my boss like reply to you.

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Anything else I’ve missed out on? Oh yes, commuting. I miss my old job a little because the commute is like 10 minutes, and now, it takes me 45 minutes to get to and from work. I guess it’s a good time as any to catch up on some reading right? #positivethinking

I think I shall end my post right here, only because I hate boring you lot with my random ramblings. If you want more random stuff like this, comment and let me know!

For now, sayonara, adieu and goodbye!

PS: And if you’re wondering what’s up with all the Benedict Cumberbatch gifs, it’s just that I’ve rather fallen in love with him recently and I wish I can call myself Mrs. Cumberbatch, but oh well, a girl can dream cant she?  To think I’ve fallen head over heels for a 40-year-old man? Gosh!

Here is another one as a bonus 😀

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PPS: I have a few reviews lined up for the next few days, and I’m looking to catch up on my blogging mojo which has fallen behind in recent times 🙂 If you must know, this blog somehow keeps me on one piece, and is essential to my sanity. 

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xoxo,
Shashay

All Of Me

Haroo awesomesauces!

I know I have been MIA for a while now, and I’m extremely sorry about that *humble apology bow* The thing is, I have been feeling really sucky about not having a camera and to add on, I have been feeling rather depressed as le boyf is out of the country, and I don’t have means of talking to him. I am slightly over attached to him you see so do forgive me 😦 The icing on the cake would be the fact that I am in the midst of relocating back to the city . Yeap, you heard that right! I am reshuffling, reorganizing and taking charge my life 🙂

The truth is, I’ve been stuck in a job that I hated, and with crappy working hours and off days. I was becoming extremely unhappy as the months passed. I started resenting the company and everything it stood for & I will gladly tell anyone who wants to join to run the other way, as fast as they can. I wont name anyone or any organization in this post obviously, I cant afford being sued at the moment, but talk to me in person and I’ll tell you the nightmare the job was. I feel sorry for the few friends I have who are still stuck in there.

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So why did I even take up the job?  Somebody has to pay the bills and foot the shopping expenses right? And being the utterly independent & stubborn person I’ve always been, I refused to live under my parents roof and parasite off them. Goodness knows they already have a handful of things to take care of.

I cant reveal much about the new happenings, but all I can say is, I’m extremely happy with my new path.  I am really excited to start afresh and to be working amongst intelligent people (which was such a rarity in my my current company, see gif below) and to be working normal human hours and days again. I am really looking forward to whole new exciting adventure ❤

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Anyway, I’m in the midst of looking for a new home, and tenants for my old home, so if anyone is interested to rent a very nice master bedroom with an attached washroom , do drop me an email.

Future happenings? I will be organizing a few giveaways here and there, and I have got amazing products to review (think Real Techniques, Givenchy)  as well, so stay tuned. I’ll be back to daily blogging by next week, so bear with my incompetency this week and I’ll make it up to all of you.

And in reference to the blog post title, I originally wanted to title this Future Happenings, but considering I am so obsessed with John Legend’s All of Me at the moment, I went for it. You can watch the video below ❤ The song is running on repeat on my speakers here!

So long for now, Happy Friday and have a grrreaat weekend! I know mine is going to be awesomesauce 😀

xoxo,
Shashay